Today

I have much to blog about....a lot to catch up on.
Way sorry.

BUT

Let's talk about today for a minute. Today was an incredible day, really.
I woke up (slept until I was done sleeping).
I ate breakfast while watching Grey's Anatomy (a very good episode, I might add).
I showered.
I ate a lovely lunch that Shaye prepared for us.
I went to work--the matinee of To Kill A Mockingbird. Sadie was my supervisor, which was awesome because I like Sadie.
My fellow House Managers were Tanner and Angie and they are just so fun to work with. We all have such a good time.
THEN
Shaye and I were planning on going to see Les Miserables tonight, so we got our tickets weeks ago. But then Sadie came and we wanted her to come with us. And so you know what we managed? A serious ticket upgrade. We went from sitting in the back balcony to FIFTH ROW, DEAD CENTER seats. Row E. Oh. My. Gosh.
Then Tanner finds lemon bars that were left over from some party--so we ate them.
Then Andrew showed up with four bags full of treats--blueberry, white chocolate scones, tarts, croissants, muffins, danishes, I mean....a ton. That he is just giving away.
Then Austin brought his new puppy over for a visit and she is BEAUTIFUL. Oh my gosh, I definitely needed some puppy time. She was the cutest thing and she just loved to play.
Then a nice man randomly came and gave us a box of homemade chocolates because, "we are the unsung heroes of the Shakespeare Festival." For. The. Win.
Then, after all of the guests had left, I realized that I hadn't been yelled at by one person! Everyone was so friendly today! Huzzah!
Then work was all over and Sadie and I were walking home and it started to rain....and then IT RAINED.
I got home, took my shoes off, and went and just stood in this rain. Lightning, Thunder, Crazy Rain. I was soaking wet within a minute. The kind of rain that you only see in movies. Holy cow, it was awesome.
Then I made dinner for me and Sadie--really yummy tacos. We had to counteract all of that sugar we had just consumed.
Then I took a second shower, because I was really nasty from standing out in the pouring rain for 45 minutes.
Then Sadie and I went and took Shaye her Les Miserables ticket, because she was going to be late.
Then Sadie and I went and sat in our INCREDIBLE seats!!!!
And then
and then, and then, and then.....
The show started.
It was heart-wrenchingly beautiful. Oh my gosh. I wept through the entire thing. This show is one of those shows that makes you reevaluate your life. What's important, what matters, what are you doing with your life.....It really makes you think.
It was the kind of beautiful that makes your heart hurt. And your chest feel like it is going to burst because it is so full of feelings.
Blows my mind.
What a fantastic day. Wow.
I would ask for another day just like today, but I don't think I have the emotional capacity for that again. WHEW.
I'm exhausted.

The end is near

The end of undergrad is in sight.

Wow

Where did that time go?

Sure on this Shining Night

Sure on this shining night
Of star-made shadows round
Kindness must watch for me
This side the ground
The late year lies down the north,
All is healed, all is health
High summer holds the earth,
Hearts all whole
Sure on this shining night
I weep for wonder
Wandr’ing far alone
Of shadows on the stars.

James Agee (1909-1955) -
“Description of Elysium”, from Permit Me Voyage,
stanzas 6-8, 1934

silent screaming

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THERE. Now I feel better.

coming unglued

Seam by seam, limb by limb....I am coming unglued.

Bulleted list, because that's the only way this is going to work:
GRAD SCHOOLS APPLICATIONS:
1. Why do they have to make it so difficult to navigate their webpage?
2. Why is it that all of the requirements for applying aren't just listed on one page? And why are some of them in really fine print in a completely different section not relating to music at all?
3. Why do they think that as an entering Grad student I would want be capable of helping direct the University choirs? I am pretty sure I am no where near capable of doing such a thing.
4. Why is it SO expensive?
5. Why can't they all just be due at the same time? One general due date. UMKC has to be RECEIVED by December 1. Maryland has to be postmarked by December 1. Wisconsin has to be postmarked by December 1. BYU isn't due until February 15. Wichita isn't due until July?! WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT?
6. Why is there no phone number for me to call when I have questions about your highly confusing applications? You ask me for contact information--I already gave you all of mine....are you asking for the info of someone else? For the contact information for my recommendors? I don't know, you didn't specify. How do I find out if you don't list a phone number?!
7. I don't know what to write you in my letter of intent--about why I want a Master's of Music? About why I want a Master's of Music from YOUR school? About why I think you should accept me to your program? About my accomplishments? What do you want to know?! In 300 words or less. See, that's just rude. If you want me to write that little, you have gotta give me more to go on.

Okay. I think my rant is complete. There were too many words for me to try to say them all out loud.
Words are hard.

COLORS

My skin is kind of sort of brownish
Pinkish yellowish white.
My eyes are grayish blueish green,
But I'm told they look orange in the night.
My hair is reddish blondish brown,
But it's silver when it's wet.
And all the colors I am inside
Have not been invented yet.

-Shel Silverstein

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And that's all I have to say about this weekend.

Love, Geneil