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THERE. Now I feel better.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
coming unglued
Seam by seam, limb by limb....I am coming unglued.
Bulleted list, because that's the only way this is going to work:
GRAD SCHOOLS APPLICATIONS:
1. Why do they have to make it so difficult to navigate their webpage?
2. Why is it that all of the requirements for applying aren't just listed on one page? And why are some of them in really fine print in a completely different section not relating to music at all?
3. Why do they think that as an entering Grad student I would want be capable of helping direct the University choirs? I am pretty sure I am no where near capable of doing such a thing.
4. Why is it SO expensive?
5. Why can't they all just be due at the same time? One general due date. UMKC has to be RECEIVED by December 1. Maryland has to be postmarked by December 1. Wisconsin has to be postmarked by December 1. BYU isn't due until February 15. Wichita isn't due until July?! WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT?
6. Why is there no phone number for me to call when I have questions about your highly confusing applications? You ask me for contact information--I already gave you all of mine....are you asking for the info of someone else? For the contact information for my recommendors? I don't know, you didn't specify. How do I find out if you don't list a phone number?!
7. I don't know what to write you in my letter of intent--about why I want a Master's of Music? About why I want a Master's of Music from YOUR school? About why I think you should accept me to your program? About my accomplishments? What do you want to know?! In 300 words or less. See, that's just rude. If you want me to write that little, you have gotta give me more to go on.
Okay. I think my rant is complete. There were too many words for me to try to say them all out loud.
Words are hard.
Bulleted list, because that's the only way this is going to work:
GRAD SCHOOLS APPLICATIONS:
1. Why do they have to make it so difficult to navigate their webpage?
2. Why is it that all of the requirements for applying aren't just listed on one page? And why are some of them in really fine print in a completely different section not relating to music at all?
3. Why do they think that as an entering Grad student I would want be capable of helping direct the University choirs? I am pretty sure I am no where near capable of doing such a thing.
4. Why is it SO expensive?
5. Why can't they all just be due at the same time? One general due date. UMKC has to be RECEIVED by December 1. Maryland has to be postmarked by December 1. Wisconsin has to be postmarked by December 1. BYU isn't due until February 15. Wichita isn't due until July?! WHAT IS THAT ALL ABOUT?
6. Why is there no phone number for me to call when I have questions about your highly confusing applications? You ask me for contact information--I already gave you all of mine....are you asking for the info of someone else? For the contact information for my recommendors? I don't know, you didn't specify. How do I find out if you don't list a phone number?!
7. I don't know what to write you in my letter of intent--about why I want a Master's of Music? About why I want a Master's of Music from YOUR school? About why I think you should accept me to your program? About my accomplishments? What do you want to know?! In 300 words or less. See, that's just rude. If you want me to write that little, you have gotta give me more to go on.
Okay. I think my rant is complete. There were too many words for me to try to say them all out loud.
Words are hard.
Monday, October 24, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
ajd(&*4kka9*4jh;l8923;kojasdf
ajd(&*4kka9*4jh;l8923;kojasdf
And that's all I have to say about this weekend.
Love, Geneil
And that's all I have to say about this weekend.
Love, Geneil
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Cedar City
Have you ever been to Cedar City?
Not "Oh, I drove by on the freeway."
Not "Oh, I stopped for gas there once."
Not "Oh, I had to stop on my way through and get subway."
No for real, have you BEEN to Cedar City?
Have you been to the Pastry Pub? Have you been to Park Discovery? Have you been up Cedar canyon? Have you walked around SUU campus? Have you seen a Shakespeare show?
I HAVE, I HAVE, I HAVE!!
Oh my goodness, Cedar City is such a beautiful place. I am glad to be back. It's so green and beautiful and it really is like a home away from home. It's so nice to be in my house (though I am looking forward to the day when my roommates move in). It's so nice to be back in the music building. To talk with Donna about life and things. It's so nice to walk around this beautiful place that I have called home away from home for the past four years (five, by the time I graduate...).
But I miss my real home. My home where my family is. It was hard to leave this year. I love my family. I know that you all know this....but I don't think you REALLY know. My family is the best.
I want all of the things I learned and realized this summer to stay with me. I don't want them to leave. All of the changes I have gone through, the confidence I have gained, the fact that I was cheerful most of the time....I don't want it to go away!
This summer I finally found ME again. I was kind of lost there for a little while.
Please help me to be me all year. Okay? Okay.
No going back.
BAM.
Not "Oh, I drove by on the freeway."
Not "Oh, I stopped for gas there once."
Not "Oh, I had to stop on my way through and get subway."
No for real, have you BEEN to Cedar City?
Have you been to the Pastry Pub? Have you been to Park Discovery? Have you been up Cedar canyon? Have you walked around SUU campus? Have you seen a Shakespeare show?
I HAVE, I HAVE, I HAVE!!
Oh my goodness, Cedar City is such a beautiful place. I am glad to be back. It's so green and beautiful and it really is like a home away from home. It's so nice to be in my house (though I am looking forward to the day when my roommates move in). It's so nice to be back in the music building. To talk with Donna about life and things. It's so nice to walk around this beautiful place that I have called home away from home for the past four years (five, by the time I graduate...).
But I miss my real home. My home where my family is. It was hard to leave this year. I love my family. I know that you all know this....but I don't think you REALLY know. My family is the best.
I want all of the things I learned and realized this summer to stay with me. I don't want them to leave. All of the changes I have gone through, the confidence I have gained, the fact that I was cheerful most of the time....I don't want it to go away!
This summer I finally found ME again. I was kind of lost there for a little while.
Please help me to be me all year. Okay? Okay.
No going back.
BAM.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Things change, Jo.
I have a few things on my mind and no way to get them out. So here we go...
I don't wear my heart on my sleeve, guys. I'm not all "open" or "share-y". I'm just not. Never have been. Let's face it, probably never will be. So it's weird to write this down where people might actually read it...but I'm giving it a try.
Things change. People change. Thoughts change. Opinions change.
I change. I have changed. I keep changing.
I think back on the person that I was four years ago. Three years ago. Two years ago. One year ago. What happened? When did I change? There are these huge, significant differences between each of those years. WOW.
Now here I am. I finished my Junior year of college. I'm home for summer. I went to Florida. I went to Girl's Camp....
and I have changed in two months time.
and I am changing more every day.
I don't see things in black and white. I see all of the gray scale in between and all of the colors in between. I have known this about myself my whole life...but it's just now that I am realizing what that means to me.
I also figured out that I am a forgive and forget kind of person. I say "I'm over it" and then I forget that it even happened. BUT whatever effect it had on me sticks. Which is really annoying, sometimes.
Like that lack of trust thing? Yeah, I kind of wish I could shake that.
But all the same, I love so many people. I appreciate every person who came into my life. Even the ones who came into my life, tore me apart, and then left. I appreciate them too.
Because they changed me. Changed me to be who I am.
And I thank them for that.
I'm grateful for the strength.
I'm grateful for the courage.
I'm grateful for the change.
I don't wear my heart on my sleeve, guys. I'm not all "open" or "share-y". I'm just not. Never have been. Let's face it, probably never will be. So it's weird to write this down where people might actually read it...but I'm giving it a try.
Things change. People change. Thoughts change. Opinions change.
I change. I have changed. I keep changing.
I think back on the person that I was four years ago. Three years ago. Two years ago. One year ago. What happened? When did I change? There are these huge, significant differences between each of those years. WOW.
Now here I am. I finished my Junior year of college. I'm home for summer. I went to Florida. I went to Girl's Camp....
and I have changed in two months time.
and I am changing more every day.
I don't see things in black and white. I see all of the gray scale in between and all of the colors in between. I have known this about myself my whole life...but it's just now that I am realizing what that means to me.
I also figured out that I am a forgive and forget kind of person. I say "I'm over it" and then I forget that it even happened. BUT whatever effect it had on me sticks. Which is really annoying, sometimes.
Like that lack of trust thing? Yeah, I kind of wish I could shake that.
But all the same, I love so many people. I appreciate every person who came into my life. Even the ones who came into my life, tore me apart, and then left. I appreciate them too.
Because they changed me. Changed me to be who I am.
And I thank them for that.
I'm grateful for the strength.
I'm grateful for the courage.
I'm grateful for the change.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
The Professional Choral Institute: Day 15
Sunday, June 5--The Last Day
The bus was leaving for Ft. Lauderdale at 10:00. Our last performance was tonight at 6:00. It was going to be a four hour bus ride to Ft. Lauderdale...so at least we had lots of time to spend with PCI.
Taliah and I sat next to each other and then we sat around Mariam Osman, Andrew Hoy, Tom Regan, Cecilia Lo, Brett Bailey and David Evans. We started playing Three Truths and a Lie. I was having a hard time with that one. I couldn’t think of anything that wasn’t completely obvious. YEESH. But it was fun and it was a really good way to get to know each other. It was a long bus ride but it was totally fun the whole way over. Joey Quigley kind of had little exit interviews with us. He just asked us what they could improve on for next year and I could honestly said "No improvements, I thought it was awesome! I loved every minute of it." He laughed a little because I was just SO happy. I did joke about how I was put down as a soprano and how that was a BIG MISTAKE. :]
Ft. Lauderdale is beautiful. It’s a completely different kind of city than Tampa. I really loved it. I loved the scenery and the way the little shops were all lined up.
We got to All Saints Episcopal church and dropped off our stuff and had to run and find somewhere to grab lunch. We ended up at a restaurant called Mangos with some PCI people and some Seraphic Fire peeople. I ended up sitting with Mariam, Kat Mueller (from Seraphic Fire), Taliah, and Brett Bailey. Very fun. Kat is so great and it was fun to get to know her a little bit and some of her background. She was very personable and incredibly kind. I loved hearing her tell stories about how she is a pesco-vegetarian and how she is earth friendly. She goes, “Well, I am kind of a vegetarian….I eat fish. Because, you know, I could kill a fish.” Yup, I definitely liked her from the very start. After lunch we still had about 15 minutes and Kat thought of going to grab some frozen yogurt. Best idea EVER. Vanilla frozen yogurt with strawberries and blueberries? What could be better?
We ran back to the church and got ready and had a sound check. The acoustics in the church were AMAZING. We were all so excited for our last concert.
Singing tonight was just so fun. I almost cried at least six different times. Every time we ended a movement, it made me so sad to think that it was the last time that I would be singing this beloved requiem with these beloved people. It was so fun. I didn’t leave that concert wishing that I had given it a little more. I gave it all I had. Despite the tears.
Seraphic Fire sang “There will be rest” as an encore. Have you heard that song? Look it up--it’s on Seraphic Fire’s Christmas CD. No one could sing it better than Seraphic Fire. It is one of those songs that instantly makes your eyes tear up and makes your chest feel so full that it could burst at any minute.
After the performance we talked to the audience members. They were so great, I could tell that many of them must be regulars. Some cute ladies told us how lucky we were to be there.
Trust us, we know.
The bus ride back was a PARTY! Everyone stopped off and got some supplies for the road home. Alcohol for everyone...ice cream for me and Taliah. :]
We all talked and had fun and celebrated a good two weeks.
We got home at around 2:00 in the morning.
Goodbyes suck so bad. Everyone has been so wonderful and I just really liked everyone! Hopefully we will all see each other again someday. I'm sure we will.
We had to say goodbye as people got off the bus. We said goodbye to the USF people. We said goodbye to Seraphic Fire. We said goodbye to the Western Michigan people.
Man, it was hard. Tomorrow I hop back onto a plane...back to real life.
Goodbye Florida. Goodbye PCI. Goodbye USF. Goodbye everyone. Goodbye Requiem.
I’m going to miss you all. It’s been a pleasure.
The bus was leaving for Ft. Lauderdale at 10:00. Our last performance was tonight at 6:00. It was going to be a four hour bus ride to Ft. Lauderdale...so at least we had lots of time to spend with PCI.
Taliah and I sat next to each other and then we sat around Mariam Osman, Andrew Hoy, Tom Regan, Cecilia Lo, Brett Bailey and David Evans. We started playing Three Truths and a Lie. I was having a hard time with that one. I couldn’t think of anything that wasn’t completely obvious. YEESH. But it was fun and it was a really good way to get to know each other. It was a long bus ride but it was totally fun the whole way over. Joey Quigley kind of had little exit interviews with us. He just asked us what they could improve on for next year and I could honestly said "No improvements, I thought it was awesome! I loved every minute of it." He laughed a little because I was just SO happy. I did joke about how I was put down as a soprano and how that was a BIG MISTAKE. :]
Ft. Lauderdale is beautiful. It’s a completely different kind of city than Tampa. I really loved it. I loved the scenery and the way the little shops were all lined up.
We got to All Saints Episcopal church and dropped off our stuff and had to run and find somewhere to grab lunch. We ended up at a restaurant called Mangos with some PCI people and some Seraphic Fire peeople. I ended up sitting with Mariam, Kat Mueller (from Seraphic Fire), Taliah, and Brett Bailey. Very fun. Kat is so great and it was fun to get to know her a little bit and some of her background. She was very personable and incredibly kind. I loved hearing her tell stories about how she is a pesco-vegetarian and how she is earth friendly. She goes, “Well, I am kind of a vegetarian….I eat fish. Because, you know, I could kill a fish.” Yup, I definitely liked her from the very start. After lunch we still had about 15 minutes and Kat thought of going to grab some frozen yogurt. Best idea EVER. Vanilla frozen yogurt with strawberries and blueberries? What could be better?
We ran back to the church and got ready and had a sound check. The acoustics in the church were AMAZING. We were all so excited for our last concert.
Singing tonight was just so fun. I almost cried at least six different times. Every time we ended a movement, it made me so sad to think that it was the last time that I would be singing this beloved requiem with these beloved people. It was so fun. I didn’t leave that concert wishing that I had given it a little more. I gave it all I had. Despite the tears.
Seraphic Fire sang “There will be rest” as an encore. Have you heard that song? Look it up--it’s on Seraphic Fire’s Christmas CD. No one could sing it better than Seraphic Fire. It is one of those songs that instantly makes your eyes tear up and makes your chest feel so full that it could burst at any minute.
After the performance we talked to the audience members. They were so great, I could tell that many of them must be regulars. Some cute ladies told us how lucky we were to be there.
Trust us, we know.
The bus ride back was a PARTY! Everyone stopped off and got some supplies for the road home. Alcohol for everyone...ice cream for me and Taliah. :]
We all talked and had fun and celebrated a good two weeks.
We got home at around 2:00 in the morning.
Goodbyes suck so bad. Everyone has been so wonderful and I just really liked everyone! Hopefully we will all see each other again someday. I'm sure we will.
We had to say goodbye as people got off the bus. We said goodbye to the USF people. We said goodbye to Seraphic Fire. We said goodbye to the Western Michigan people.
Man, it was hard. Tomorrow I hop back onto a plane...back to real life.
Goodbye Florida. Goodbye PCI. Goodbye USF. Goodbye everyone. Goodbye Requiem.
I’m going to miss you all. It’s been a pleasure.
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